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Read-a-holics; this is for you - May. 11, 2005 design by Jesa |
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Apr. 01, 2003 - it isnt' about the kiss
Shannon isn�t just a girl that my sister kissed. Shannon as a person represents everything that Morgan has tried so hard to leave behind when she left Jamie. Shannon has no self-esteem or self respect for that matter and is very flirty and manipulative. But my sister will still defend Shannon whenever I say something negative about her. Why? Does she really want to belong somewhere that bad? I know in my head that she needs to live her own life, but it is so hard to watch someone fuck up over and over again. Why does she allow people with such low self esteem control her emotions? What is it that the losers have over her? Why is it that I won�t let her fail and fall? Why do I want to be her mother? When everything is all said and done at the end of the day, I don�t want to be her mother. I want to be her sister and friend but I can�t let that go and I don�t know why. I wonder how long she is going to go with out talking to me? I wonder how long I will go with out talking to her? This is really a scattered entry, but I have tried to write it several times and this is the only one that makes the most sense to me and I guess that is all that matters�
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